Aug 27, 24

 Today we started reading "Two Kinds" by Amy Tan. It was about a Chinese immigrant mother and her daughter who was born in America. It was really about how the mother was trying to give her daughter a good life by pushing her to do great things, and basically find out in what field the daughter was good at. However, the daughter wasn't very good at anything like that and just disappointed her mother most of the time, causing her to feel bad about herself and not want to do anything. I can relate to that with the fact that my parents are always pushing me to be better at to do certain things like piano. At first I was fine with it, but it after a while it just bad me feel bad when i'd mess up because I would just get lectured or scolded when I was genuinely trying my best. I remember at one point I just stopped playing completely and made myself forget pieces that I knew, just out of spite since I wasn't playing for myself anymore. For instance, the only reason I learnt "Moonlight Sonata" was because my father really liked it, but I was so frustrated with being punished for messing up, or not playing it with "feeling" when I was just learning it for him. Now I just learn songs I like, and I don't let them be involved with the classes as a compromise. That way i'm still playing and getting better like they want, but I'm not being pressured how I was before by them.

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